Like I just said, getting old is weird. You start to realize things about yourself that you don’t want to realize. I am everything that I never thought I’d be. I’m everything that I said I hated at one point in time. It’s so weird to finally see it. And I’m not proud to admit that either. What’s worse is realizing the mistakes you made in your life and the people you let go so quickly or so easily. Or that you’re the reason people aren’t around anymore. I really hate it.

I just want to be 16 again without a care in the world. And being able to look out at this great big world and think to myself “Someday I can conquer it” but now all I feel is that it conquered me.

I just got weird and mushy and I don’t like that either.

On a lighter note, school is almost over and I have a feeling that this summer is going to be one of the best yet. Summer 2k9 can’t start soon enough. I’m ready for some big adventures, new people, and summer romance. Bring it on world.